Mr Angry

Anger is a good thing, or so all the psycho-analysts seem to advocate. Release your anger, don't keep it in. Anger kept in will hurt and harm you. So why does it provoke such a negative response from those on the receiving end. The net result on the recipient is usually guilt, another "negative" emotion.
How does this all relate to offshore life? My example is being woken at 4 in the morning by a trainee looking for a cost estimate for our equipment over the last 24 hours. The trainee had been shown where all this information was available and had been asked for the costing at 01:00hrs in the morning. The Co-rep had been in receipt of the costing for the last week and it hadn't changed for a week. So when I was woken at 4 in the morning for this, slightly less than critical, information I felt a lot of anger. I wanted to grab the trainee and shout at him "why didn't you look at the sheet for the last week?" I felt like marching up to the co-rep and shouting "Is this really critical at this time and what makes you think it has changed today after it has been the same for the last week?" But I lay in my bed and woke up. I got dressed quickly and went down to the co-reps office and said " were you looking for the costing for today?" "Sorry about that, you would like that at midnight?" I was timid, restrained an subservient to the client, just like a good service hand should. I came out of his office carrying even more anger and guilt. So what is the solution to all of this? How should I release this anger and prevent this guilt, which is doing nothing but harm to me? Should I care less about my job?
I will probably do what I always do and bury it all. Move on to the next day. This will bring another group of problems to be solved. Will I be able to solve them all? Probably not but I will always try to and if I don't get them all done then some of them will slip till tomorrow. If I resolve not to try to solve all the problems will my anger and frustration subside? Maybe. I should just continue to do all that is in my power without taking so much on that It makes me feel ill, which is how I feel now.

Mr Angry (Scott)